-emo'fied-

I FAILED ENGLISH.
i cant believe it.
its like the 1st time i have EVER FAILED ENGLISH IN MY ENTIRE LIFE.
crude.
outburst in class shocked my closest friends AND of course my clique.
TLL stood on my left,
blocking the left viewers.
pearly AND ginny AND sam AND celine hugged me tons,
comforting me etc.
its the 1st time i ever cried in class since sec school,
kinda shocked myself,
when i could'nt control my tears that came pouring out..
THANKS GUYS! ;D

i could'nt understand it,
were you just hanging around or were you concerned for me?
you confuse me all the time,
one moment,you're soo nice ;
the next, and you're screaming your head off at me.
i rejected you in public once,
im sorry too.
but i could'nt just admit my true feelings in front of all of them.
it's just too complicated.
thinking of you is a burden sometimes,
especially when i see something i hate,
or just want to mend my long-broken heart.

despite going to the marina barrage,
i still could'nt shake off that feeling - emptiness AND sadness.
i was unable to stop thinking,
unable to stop wondering.
"will my parents stop me from going m'sia next week?"
sam says to call her ASAP if that happened.
i might even just ask my aunt whether we could fly to Taiwan straight..

cant seem to laugh now,
its just soo straining for me to do that now.
give me a few days,
i should have lightened up by then..
if not,
feel free to call a psychiatrist.

blog more soon..
im not in the mood to upload the pics we took 2dae..
really sorry if i made you depressed while reading this post..

XOXO torn apart. non-amour